Originally Posted by BabyCoco

Hey guys! hope u don't mind but i just feel like having a bit of a rant... SORRY ITS SO LONG!

I've been through alot since the old KP board was taken down and i blame it all on KP! (I know i shouldn't but i do lol) I was going out with my bf for about 1 year and 8 months, when i finally decided to confess to him bout my kp... (he had already seen it but never asked what it was or mentioned it) Like, it was more for me than for him, i had previously been so worried about him seeing it on my arms, and would always hide it, and i was so proud of myself to finally have the courage to tell him about it... and i finally told him, and he was like "oh yeh those pimples u have all ova ur body ive already seen them" i got really defensive n was like "they r not pimples! and i dont have it ALL ova my body!" but anywayz to cut a long story short, he dumped me a few days later out of the blue (coincedently the same night the kp msg board went down! .... like i just cant seem 2 explain it and the only answer i can find is cuz of the KP... sounds stupid i know, but he just all of a sudden decided he didnt love me coincedently the same time i told him about kp. Of course there mustve been sumfin else, but i'm sure the kp had sumfin 2 do with it!!

This happend 3 months ago, and ever since then i've been extremely depressed He was my first real love so i haven't been coping well at all going thru this breakup. He was my best friend too. After he dumped me i gave up on treating my kp cuz i felt there was no point. I get told that i can easily get another bf who will respect me (my ex was an ******* 2 me) and i get told i'm good looking by lots of guys, cept I'm too scared to get a new bf because im scared of his reaction when he see's or i tell him about my kp... I have no self-esteem at all!! I hate how kp limits us.

Anywayz, after about 2 months i decided i was gonna fight the kp again, and purchased sum more MSM, i had run out of sulfur soap so was just going to try the MSM by itself.... and what i found was interesting.. heaps of ppl have said that MSM doesnt do anything for them, but for me it really cleared up sum patches all by itself without any scrubbing or sulfur soap. So yeh.. it must work, unless it had sum placebo effect on me! A birthday of a friends was coming up and i knew that my ex was going to be there and he had told alot of the guys that i cant wear sleevless tops and i despertaly wanted to show them that i do have confidence (cuz my lack of confidence mixed with kp is wat i believe drove him away) and can wear those tops so i scrubed my arms, slapped on st.tropez fake tan, scrubed my arms again (cuz the tan got caught in sum of the pores n scars) and put a layer of foundation on both arms with a makeup sponge then brushed on translucent powder over them and put on a little red halter neck top! for like the first time in about 4 years i went out in public with a sleeveless top!! i was so proud of myself lol Luckily the bday was at a club, so it was kinda dark anywayz which helped! But yeh, i felt sooooooo good being able 2 wear a sleeveless top, at first i was scared ppl were going to give me weird looks if they saw my kp, but i asked one of the guys if he could see a rash on my arms and he was like "what? nah what r u talking about i cant see anything" and i even got compliments from sum of the guys tellin me that i looked really good. It was like the best feeling... i wish i could feel like that everyday. My ex got kicked out of the club that night which was extra funny cuz he tried to punch the guy i had brought with me lol. I just wish i could wear shortsleeve tops in daylight!! but arghh wat can u do...