Hello everyone ! I am a 21 year old college student. I've suffered from kp since I was 10. It has made my life a living hell! All my life I've avoided making relationships with girls,because I feared what they might think if they noticed my KP. KP has severely reduced my social interaction and I am basically a loner! People often ask me why I remain distant from everyone. It is very diificult for me to explain to them my problem, as nobody I know has this problem.
Some people think I am a Psycho ! It has had a devastating impact on my emotional well-being and has ruined my life completely! Many a times I wonder why I have been cursed with this incurable disease! Serioulsy man! Why us?
I have lost faith in God and become a non-believer! My self-confidence has plummetted to unmeasurable depths! Often I think of committing SUICIDE as I cannot bear to live with this thing my whole life! But I cannot gather the strength to do it! Does anyone else harbour the thought of suicide like me?
And why man do we don't have a cure for this thing! I am sick of living like a dead person! I feel like my body is rotting! I wann just end my misery!

ravs009,

It breaks my heart to read of your distress. Please seek out someone to talk to about this. There must be counselors at your college who can direct you to professionals who can help you regain your self-confidence. Also, read the sticky thread "Thread Devoted to What Works for You." Here, you will find accounts written by other forum members of methods and remedies they used that made a significant reduction of their KP. Please try some of these methods, and let us know if any help you. You need to give a new treatment at least 30 days to see if it can make a difference.

Hang in there -- you are not alone. We are all here to listen and send good thoughts to you.



kebod

Hi ravs009,
Ive only just joined but I read your thread and just thought I'd see how you were. Hope you're not feeling too down! x

ravs009:


You know why you haven't killed yourself? Because God is protecting you, he is holding you. No matter that we give up on God, he'll never give up on us.

I encourage you to talk to him like he was in front of you. HE will do something wonderful with you...

Footprints in the Sand

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with
the Lord.

Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.

In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand. Sometimes there were two sets of footprints, other times there were one set of footprints.

This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life, when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat, I could see only one set of footprints.

So I said to the Lord, "You promised me Lord, that if I followed you, you would walk with me always. But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life there have only been one set of footprints in the sand.

Why, when I needed you most, you have not been there for me?" The Lord replied, "The times when you have seen only one set of footprints in the sand, is when I carried you."


Please, I would love you and other members that feel the same way to keep on posting here and being part of our community. We care for each other and cheer each one up when we feel down, no matter it is posted public or private.

I have a family here - I wish you can meet us!

I know it's very difficult, but there ARE treatments available that could help you. You just have to try them, ok?

Take care and welcome!!!

Hang in there , ravs009 .... I've been there too and had several suicidal thoughts as well. You just have to think that at some time things will get better. You have to have some faith.

Do not think you're the only person with such thoughts and experience. I'm a loner too ... with almost no social relations at all. This skin disease has destroyed my social life in every single way. Even when my face is not so red for a certain period of time- during which I'm supposed to feel 'normal' - I fail to establish any successful relationswith people, especially girls . It's gotten to the point where I decided just for now not to talk to girls at all .

I can totally understand how you feel. I keep myself from meeting new people, as I have both KPRF and ROSACEA. I have no idea why I have this problem, and I'm the only person I know to have this disease around, except the internet of course. I've thought of killing myself soo many times, but never had the courage to do so. Now, I don't have the suicidal thoughts anymore, at least for now, because I've found people on the internet to talk to , people who understands me and gives me the support that I never had. I also found playing my piano gives me the relaxation I need when flushing. I know that a cure will never be found, but I believe that there will be better treatments in the future, so please don't give up!